CAT GUTS/feelings???

Well i aint goin 2 skool tuesdaycuz i hav this thing with my church i dnt rele wanna makeup work on wednesday ...i might splode...when i spolde i hope i splode allovr the teachers and girls and they hav 2 pick up cat-guts hehehe lol im listenin 2 jumper lol sumtimes i do wanna jump of a ledge lol i am not afraid 2 die @ all when i get happy or attched 2 some1 or sumthing it always leaves me lik my fam and ppl call me a ho it makes me wanna cry but i dnt evr evr evr evr sry last time i cried was lik ... a longgggg time ago i nevr lett ppl c me cry or rele talk about my feelings sooo 4 me 2 out this on the net 4 my friends iss prty hard 2 write nd when ppl talk about u and u kno it they stare at u n laugh u just act lik nothing is rong when inside u feel u just wanna cry or get killd and ppl call u emo 4 no reason i aint no fuggin emo yr just the biggest prep evr i hate being lik evry1 else i always try 2 just do my own thing lik hate twilight and consisting ovr the color pink in evrything i wear and idk but ppl hate u cuz they askd u out and u rejectd them so they makup a rumor tht u madeout on the gym floor and topuching and shit so u try and lik nothing is rong but u just wanna b alone ppl r lik wuts up with yr poker face? im lik mayb its cuz i hav 2 deal wit yew preppy bitches all day who only care about themselves and spread rumors and gossip all day ...mayb its becuz when u go out and u c sum2 from yr skool they always hav sumthin 2 say about u 2 a friend yr with evry1 has a remark 2 mak about sumthin in the world lik y cant evry1 just zen out evry1 day and just havv fun wit friends and not worry about wut evry1 else is doing and not hate evry1 becuz of sumthing u heard or becuz they act different nd u walk around lik yr the shit and not worry about ne1 elses feelings and wut u say 2 them u hav no feeling 4 wut uv done u just do it and lauff when u kno tht person heard u u purposley did it 2 get a lauff from yr friends mayb u should just say it 2 my face and watch wut it does 2 me when sumthing slowly kills u inside ppl reconnize it they just dnt giva shit becuz their life is much more important than yrs .... well no1 needs 2 care about ne1 zz buisness so y should we care about eachothrs feelings??? we shouldnt just go on and do wut u do evryday go thru life lik tht u aint gonna get anywer hurting ppl 2 make yrself feel bettr yr just a bully .....